If anyone were ever a poster-child for SAD (seasonal affective disorder) it would be me. I was born and raised on the wind-swept plains of middle America, but at least there was plentiful sunshine! The past several winters have been difficult, especially in China and Indiana where the sun seems to have fallen from the sky.
I try to stay occupied, exercise at the gym, and see friends as often as possible, but I still feel like I want to go crazy. I don't think I've even laughed in a full week. Okay, maybe more like a day, but that is strange. And I feel like I'm also surrounded by SAD people--at work, in classes, on the street... I singlehandedly feel like I'm offending/upsetting/saddening everyone I talk to or even look at. But then I realize it's probably not because of me, and I should try to encourage them.
It's just been a weird couple of weeks. The past many days have been filled with snow, some more snow, classes I'm not too enthusiastic about, difficult conversations with people, the realization that I'm a grown-up, and just not a whole lot of joy, to be honest.
I'm just thankful that the Father's love isn't dependent on the seasons or circumstances. Otherwise I would certainly be up a creek without a paddle. (I at first wrote, "up a paddle without a creek.") Hmmm... I should have taught my Chinese students that idiom. How would you explain it?
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never heard of that idiom... aw wish i could be there to do a random dance party to lighten up the mood. heck, u can do one by yourself ;) haha thinking of you friend and hoping that he'll bring across some joys and blessings to shower upon your way!!
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